Today was unusual but in such a normal and uneventful way. I am probably confusing you at this point. Today our whole family was at home but not because of a holiday or celebration.The normalcy made it unusual.
We sat on the couch on the floor wherever we fit in the living room like we always have watching home movies. It was amazing to have us all home spending time together that wasn’t a holiday or a special occasion. Just the day before I had been writing about standing on the mountain top and looking out at the landscape of my life. Now here I was with my mostly grown family watching it in real-time on a tv screen, watching the changes happen. As I watched I could see it is true that each child is fearfully and wonderfully made who they are from birth. I watched as they handled situations, and how similar it is to how they handle things as adults and it was eye-opening. My son who is serious and analytical was like this as a child, he would pick apart the games they played and analyze the best way to do it. My dramatic daughter was oh so comical I wish I could post a piece for you! It was one of those moments when the light turns on and you see everything so clearly and it makes you excited to move forward, to keep going. Thank you Jesus for the light!
God just used this night to spur me on! It has been a long road and the twenties have been a little rough I have to admit. Things have been leveling out as my oldest closes in on 25 and gets more and more perspective into adulthood. Kind of like going from that screaming, crying phase to when they start to communicate in small ways; you begin to see the light. He spurred me on by showing me how He created my kids from the beginning and how He is using these things in their lives and the lives of those around them. What an incredible journey it has been to see beyond the fear of their weaknesses to the victory of their strengths which are so integrally tied together. This is a statement the Holy Spirit taught me early on;our greatest strengths are also our greatest weaknesses.
As I watched these movies I was reminded about what affects my kids. I was reminded on a deeper level how they were created and how I could build them up in that. My dramatic daughter is also my peacemaker, joyful girl. My son who can be fearful is also my most outward, people oriented child. My mommy’s girl is my caregiver, my most articulate girl is opening up and sharing her quiet gifts. I could go on and on but I will leave it there. I so often in my kids childhood got caught up in my children’s weaknesses and wanting to fix them so they would not be hurt or affected by them. What I am learning now is to turn to God and learn their strengths and build them up in them.
What stage are you at? What challenges are you facing?
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