I wanted to share something with you today. I am watching a docuseries right now called The Thyroid Secret. It has been amazing. To get the link I was entered in a contest but that is not why I am posting. To be honest normally that would make me not post but the information has been amazing. God has used this quiet time with pneumonia to turn on so many lights and have me looking at different aspects of my life that I wouldn’t or wasn’t looking at when I am at full capacity or even partial because I have not been at full capacity for several years. One of the first things that made me cry was a post on Hypothyroid Mom. Then the book Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis: Lifestyle Interventions for Finding and Treating the Root Cause by Dr.Izabella Wentz was recommended to me. All these things were saying there was something I could do about how I was feeling and I was not crazy or lazy. Anyway this has been so eye opening I just wanted to share in case someone else was struggling the way I had been. If this touches a cord with you check it out!
Each day I am working through this illness. I am trying to be quiet and stay open to what God has for me. As I slowly get better I once again find myself chomping at the bit.Okay Lord I got it I am ready to be done thanks for the quiet time! I am ready to move on. I am determining how my life will go and putting it before God. The funny thing is this is what I was supposed to be learning about through this quiet time. I am supposed to be sitting quietly at His feet watching Him work instead of me.Yet here I am as I regain a tiny bit of strength ready to move on and get back to doing things myself.
One day last week I woke up and I felt strong, I felt like I had energy. It was the first time I had felt like that in weeks and despite the amazing time I had been having with Jesus I was ecstatic to finally be moving on, or so I thought. For all my talk of being open to what God had for me each day the moment I received a touch of my own strength back I was planning my recovery and everything I would now be doing. God had other plans. I am thankful for this now but the next morning when I woke up and the days that followed where I was struggling with strength and body breakdowns I started to shut down. I started once again to question everything. Why was I doing anything I had been striving for, what is the point? I couldn’t accomplish anything on a regular basis. The thoughts just kept coming, each day more questions and peace was quickly left behind me. I was in the Word less and I had been diving deeper than I had in awhile. I prayed for others less and that is what a lot of my time had been spent doing since I physically could do nothing else.
Finally one day, I was still reading and praying just not the way I had been. I was reading, I don’t know what at the time, but the Holy Spirit broke through and told me I was leaving Mary behind to be Martha again. Not only that, but a lot of my concern was what other people were thinking because it was taking me so long to get better. He has been working on me for a few years knowing my desire to get back to Him, to get to the intimacy I once had. For the first time when my body broke down I was at peace to take it day by day and spend time with Him. In this a whisper began to emerge and get louder. I was thinking of all the Martha’s out there saying Lord why isn’t she working, why don’t you make her serve. We are and we have physical issues. I started to question the quiet, and the battle was on.
That day Jesus turned the light on. He reminded me once again that He loved what Mary did sitting before Him listening and learning. He loved that I was doing this and He was not looking for me to assuage Martha and make her feel better, not the Martha’s in the church, nor the Martha I had cultivated in myself.
Now I write this as if this battle is over and since the light got turned on I can see, but let me be honest the battle is still going. I am trying once again to rest and sit before Him in peace. I am trying once again to take things one day at a time. Today I felt better and I tried not to jump up and spend time doing things but I tried to spend my time with Him. Was I successful? Not completely but when God put something before for me I have learned the path that He takes at times. Very rarely does He turn things around in an instant. Usually with me He points something out. Then I begin to notice I am doing it and I pay attention to what He has pointed out. Then I make a change, small at first and then little by little the transformation and renewing of my mind happens. It happens in such a way that I look back amazed that I once made other choices and I wouldn’t think of making those choices now. Not because I have to or was told to or I am conforming to some law or code somehow, but because I have been transformed by God. The old has become new. That part of me does not exist anymore and I am so thankful.
So as I begin this transformation, if you are reading this thanks for being a part of His process. I hope you look to Him and see the amazing ways He is transforming you. Below I have included a song of worship that speaks to His work of transformation in our lives. I hope you enjoy it!
Nothing that God created should be eschewed. It is the point at which we see it as above God, look to the authority of man over God where we are out-of-order and summarily enslaved.
I type here from my bed recovering from pneumonia. It took hold of me as the holidays approached and became an unavoidable reality as we literally opened the year. New Year’s Day found me at the ER. This year God had some truths to confirm in my life about the role of medicine in our modern culture and in my life. Over the years of raising children God opened my eyes to all of His creation and its many uses. Through this knowledge I gained freedom. Freedom to use the myriad of plants He created all over this planet to take care of these bodies He gave us. As I grew in knowledge and wisdom the world of medicine and doctors took a back seat and no longer dictated how I ran my life. As the years went by through prayer and His wisdom illness was a small part of our journey. As 2016 came to a close we were all reflecting on how thankful we were that we had not really been hit too deeply with all these terrible illnesses that we had been hearing about around us. I have always held that doctors and medicine have their place just not the place our culture has elevated them to. I was soon to learn that often we are led by fear to turn to man for our answers but sometimes we can also be prideful that we have all the answers and not see that God has a place for both because He created both.
I woke New Year’s Day and my chest felt heavy when I took a breath, coughing exhausted me but thankfully no longer hurt; I had been battling an illness that had entered the house the week before Christmas. The miracle to testify to here is that I had tried to call the doctor the day before Christmas Eve but no one answered. By that night I was so miserable and in such pain my children stood around me in my bed and prayed over me. The result of this prayer was a cessation of the pain and fever that had been plaguing me. I was also able to interact with people a bit for the holidays. So this is another one of many God provides miracles I will be able to look to and speak of throughout my life. Anyway, I digress, below you will find our tried and true formula for illness when it enters our house and it has worked faithfully for 20+ years.
- Echinacea our first line of defense. It builds up the white blood cells that fight the invading monsters. Now in my experience while it is good to take Echinacea throughout the illness the onset is the most effective place for this remedy.
- Garlic- our mainstay to kill anything and everything. Garlic is a natural antibiotic. As such we take it in the same manner as we would an antibiotic. We start with a pink of a fresh clove or two once a day. We like to bury it in applesauce or plain yogurt and just swallow down. If this does not seem to be killing it (meaning you are not feeling better) we move up to twice then 3X a day. In really bad illnesses we have even done every 2 hrs or so.
- Ginger- If there is a lot of mucus being produced, sneezing and running, ginger is our go to. This dries up the extra production. I know it has many other properties but this is what we use it for.
- Nettle tea- This when infused for a 3 or 4 hours is a good expectorant. It is also very nourishing to the rest of your body
- Eucalyptus essential oil-when congestion is a problem with a tight cough, this brings wonderful relief. Boil a big pot of water add several drops, put a towel over your head and breath deeply. I usually stand above it as the steam is too close and too hot when I sit. This really gets the chest congestion moving.
- humidifier if night coughing and discomfort are a problem we use a warm humidifier. This year we added the Eucalyptus oil to it but I now have rivulets of oil on my walls that I need to clean once I have the strength and energy. So no more oil in my humidifier.
These are our go to remedies. As I said above we have used these for 20+ years with great success. But this illness was different and it is in listening to God that the truth was revealed. We did all of the above and the rest of the family was well within a week despite the news that all around us illness was rampant and lasting for multiple weeks. But I had gotten something special or because of my Hashimoto’s I was not able to fight whatever came in, but I can tell you now looking back it was different from the day it started. The cough started dry and tight and was painful and unproductive within 2 days. I did all of the above remedies to no avail breathing the eucalyptus or steam felt as if it were pressing the bad further down in my lungs. At the time I could not articulate that it just did not feel good. I did cough and it moved things a little but not like it normally would. So after fighting for a week and the return of a low-grade fever I knew something was not right. I knew I had done all I could it was time to check with doctors. Now the emergency room was not my first choice but being it was a holiday I knew my doctor was not going to be in and although the urgent care centers said they were open they were not . So the emergency room was where I ended up.
So what did I learn on this journey ,well, what the Spirit had been telling me for years was confirmed, doctors and medicine have their purpose and place. You see, to me, we live in a world where science is god and doctors are the priests. Priests just like we have seen them in history dictating to all, what we will do, how we will live and what will cause us to die. We are literally persecuted and looked down upon if we question that ideology or those doctors/priests. So funny how history repeats itself and how ,as it says in Ecclesiastes “There is nothing new under the sun”. In a coming post I will share about Hippocrates and what I learned as we started our history study this year. But just like people of old were freed from the tyranny of priests and their whims and wishes we too have been freed from the god of science and medicine that the world has created. Does this mean God cannot use them and does not have a purpose? Nothing that God created should be eschewed. It is the point at which we see it as above God, look to the authority of man over God where we are out-of-order and summarily enslaved.
You see the world is the same whether you see God or not. Illness is still there whether you look to Him or not. We are either blessed by the plants that surround us or we have doctors and medicines formulated by the men that He created. The key is going to Him and being free. He is the key, He knows the path, He is the creator. As God of the universe no matter how man tries to distort things, He will always set things right. So as always I started the year thankful. Thankful for all the choices He puts at my disposal and thankful He guides me to which is best in a given moment. Thankful for the quiet to sit in His presence. While we may have medicine and doctors to take care of so many things we do not need to rely on them for the answers, we also have all of His creation available to us to care for us and build us up. Ultimately it is God himself we go to for the solution. Thank you Jesus for coming here and living amongst us. Thank you for opening that direct line of communication to God for me. Thank you that I can rely on you and not be a slave to pride and fear.
When your body betrays you and you have nothing with which to accomplish life in the way you are accustomed it can be devastating, or so it may seem at first.
Each time I have been physically broken I come back to a place of spiritual brokenness that frees me from the slavery that so easily entangles me. I am released from the mess that I make of my mind when I get back to striving on my own. In my physical brokenness I learn more about trusting God. How basic is that and yet He calls us deeper all the time. What we know now is only a shadow of what is to come.
When your body betrays you and you have nothing with which to accomplish life in the way you are accustomed it can be devastating, or so it may seem at first. You find yourself in a new place striving to find new ways to do what used to be second nature. You realize how much of what you did in life you took for granted. For me the prayers I begin praying are that I will get my ability to do things on my own, back. The thing is, lately the answer I have been getting is “I love you, let me love you.” I promptly respond by letting Jesus know the way He can show love to me, my Love Language so to speak, is to give me back the ability to do things myself. That is not the freedom He wants me to experience right now. He knows I know the freedom of hard work and doing things myself. He wants me to go deeper. What He wants to show me is the freedom to watch Him work, He wants me to trust Him.
My mind does a double take of sorts when He says this. “Wait what?! How can I be following Jesus and not trust Him.” The verse about renewing and transforming comes to mind immediately. There was a time when I did not know how to do any of the things I now take for granted and do easily. In the years He spent teaching me these things I was on my knees ,literally, daily. I was clueless how to accomplish what He asked and I had no desire to do it outside of Him and His design. In the quiet of physical brokenness I listened as He spoke. Through the years I had moved from inability and reliance on Him, to strength and striving in my own power and abilities. I had developed a new habit of throwing up prayers and not waiting for the answers. Going through the motions of being Mary but really being Martha. Each time I have recently found myself in this place of physical brokenness I have been waiting foot tapping for God to get me out of it so I could get things done. His answer was again “No, trust me. I will do what needs to be done.” I will fight the battle while you stay quiet.
Trusting Him is not new, but I am being called to a new place where I will face new challenges and Jesus wants me to be free. He wants me quiet and not carrying the burdens I have been choosing to carry. He wants me free to look to Him and listen. Free to see what He wants to do next in my life. So while being physically broken is hard. I am thankful, without it I wouldn’t be here writing this today and feeling excited to watch God work.
Where are you at today are you physically broken? Are you striving to do things in your power? Take a moment and listen Jesus is calling and He wants to take care of you. When I am broken I take more time for prayer so leave me a comment and let me be praying for you.